you sit upstairs
And i sulk down.
You stare intently ...
at nothing.
And I push my face further into the pillow to hide my tears, embarrassed.
Separation looms and thing become awkward, tense,
there's not quite enough time to really worry but still we tread on eggs,
gently, carefully, watching each step
but of course they crack and we make a mess.
Nothing too painful that can't be cleaned up quickly,
But we are new and everything hurts.
Ideas discussed
And we compare notes.
You sit the back of class so you watch my neck, hair, feet, movements my chair
While I glance nervously behind, watching you out of the corner of my eye,
But you wear a leather jacket! so im shy.
You ripped and torn and shabby just what i like.
You care about things and you speak up
You stick your hand out just to be missed and pushed over and you decide..
to get in touch.
Test the water, give it a try,
Suggest a meeting place perhaps? Or is that too bold?
Should you hold back? let it get damp, wait for mould, not much like, just for taste purposes, think blue cheese..
Fingers fumble with thumbs, feet fiddle with pavements, buy yourself a fully functioning watch for goodness sake!
OH GOD OPPORTUNITY ARISE!!!
It's excrusiating!
You're the reason I'm alive and i can't even ask you out on a date?!!
but wait..
a reply...?
and, an occasion
Thank God its my birthday and there's an invite, keep it casual you know just come if you like?
A playful lie and a sweet surprise, you come!
These are steps in the right direction, good news for both parties.
The evening goes well, drinks for all and LOUD music! i make you dance for about 3 seconds.
Forced to meet friends and spoken to by family
and a peculiar strangers leaving room for distractions, whispers and otherwise inappropriate invasion of personal space. it's welcomed.
We kiss and i am delighted,
Thoughts of you occur on a regular basis.
Your name finds its way into most of my sentences
And..we text.. often.
You call and I am horrified! like a 14 year old girl, terribly shy,
Curled up on my bed, flushed and nervous
I almost don't pick up and then panic sets in, incase it stops ringing, i answer in a rush "Hello"
You are Drunk
And like me "so fucking much"
And I am excited.
We've cried now, and fought
we've screamed till we're blue in the face,
and we've seen each other naked!
We laugh and you make my stomach flip with happiness when you smile.
We're vegetarian but our favourite food is cheeseburgers.
You got my Buffy the Vampire Slayer, every series on dvd for Christmas,
This must be love.
P.S
Going on tour now
See you in a few moths or whatever.
Easy maths is me+ you= good
you are so cute,
we are the team 4 life,
fluffy is so cool,
R.I.P Banana boi & sharkie
kate nash was ere 20/02/2010
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